Thursday, April 23, 2015
It can be difficult to explain me to someone else. I've often said that I'm a contradiction. The most reality minded dreamer you will meet. I'm strong but yet sensitive & vulnerable. I'm independent but yet want someone around. I want blue skies & sunshine but yet I love the rain storms.
I've claimed for years that I'm fiercely independent. After talking with a friend I may have to retire the label of "fiercely independent". I'm independent in the way that I don't NEED someone, I can & do get by on my own just fine, but I want someone. I enjoy my time to myself but I like just having somebody around. I can do things by myself, from home projects to entertaining myself, but I'm also able to ask for help or ask someone to do something (still working on the emotional help requests though).
I'm usually up for anything! Trying a new restaurant, new music, a road trip, meeting new people, new experiences of any kind really. There's an old country song that has the line "She likes adventure with security" - I always loved that line, it just seemed to fit with how I felt most of the time.
But how do I explain this to someone? I know there are no hard & fast rules, not everything is all or nothing. But how to translate that I'm independent but yet I still would rather have you around? How do I convey that while I don't let it show what you said or did hurt me? Or that while I'm confident in myself & how I am & how I feel, I still like compliments, validations & reassurances?