I drive 3 hours a day, twice a week to get to class. Currently it's for 2 classes that I'm not largely interested in. Does not help with the drive. Autopilot kicks in & I find myself watching the tree tops, scanning for hawks or something else interesting. Or looking at the tree line for deer in the early morning or evening hours.
I started this "Let's go back to school" thing probably 5 years ago now. I feel like I'm so close to being done but yet it feels so far away. If everything goes as planned I should be done in a little over a year from now. But honestly I've said that a couple times now & things have not gone as planned. Starting to wonder if it's been a waste of time, energy, effort, & money. I feel as if I'm just spinning my wheels & not really going anywhere... On one hand I've come too far to just quit without anything to show for it. But then again as "bored, restless, & fidgety" as I've felt lately I just don't know.
"Bored, restless, & fidgety" is not a new feeling for me. It comes and goes without any real pattern. Usually it means I need a change of scenery, or a shift in routine or perspective. I do know that being behind on sleep over the past week or so certainly doesn't help.
For the most part I'm pretty content with life as it is. I generally enjoy my job but I also know that I don't want to it forever - hence, the school thing. Honestly what I want? I want to know that after all this, these long 5+ years, that I will finish/pass school & pass my boards. That I'll find a nursing job that I love, even with the headaches that it will bring. That my hope/plan will work out - that this annoying frustration, hours upon hours on the highway, lost sleep & sanity will be worth it. Is that too much to ask?
Well looking back over previous posts this still seems to fit (some that is but not all) Here's the link